The Chinese New Year is coming, and my year of fate-- I was born in the year of DOG , going to the end.

 

I still remember what I wished at my bithday day, now, back to these, only one has come true finally.

 

Like somebody else, I dreamed this year could become more colorful. Recollect the past year, some moment will be the beautiful moment of my life.

 

Well, suddenly, I don't know how to continue this blog, well, u know, there must be somebody u don't wanna remind their face, something u don't wanna talk about again. I just wanna bring a good mood 2 the next year, even if I'm still O.T. in the office now, even I'm the ONLY one left here...

 

 

 

 

To my Mum:

 

Pls do enjoy your trip to Nanting at this moment, thanks for calling to me last night and sharing CaiQin (蔡琴)'s song --夜上海 with me via phone. In the past twenty years, u worked so hard and set a good sample 2 me, yet my performance is not good enough to up to ur requirement. However, I still wanna thank you for giving me the life, when I meet the obstacles and setbacks, you always encourage me to overcome it. Even though you can't give me some suggestions on how 2 choose or continue my career path sometimes,  I'm still very clear that your anxious attention 2 my every step. Sometimes, I didn't control my temper very well, b/ of my dissatisfaction 2 my present state.Pls forgive my involuntary behavior, b/ I know, u r the ONLY closed person 2 me in the whole world.

 

I'll become more greater in the new coming year, I promise. Learn more cooking, to join in more social activities, to build a more healthy shape and be rich in my personality.

 

To my 9 years classmate--Qiqi:

 

Pls take good care of yourself, my 9 years classmates. Looking forward 2 seeing ur baby in the next March. In the next year, ur social role will be one more, besides Mrs Fu, good daughter 2 ur family, and u will be the mother of ur baby. I do believe u could do this NEW JOB as good as ur other roles.

 

To my friend-- James Lee:

 

Although we just have the chance 2 meet in person about 10 mins early this year, I do wanna say thank you 4 getting some pro. advices from ur side later in the year of 2006. Surprised 2 be informed that you'll be DAD next month, and give you my proposal for your baby's name. Glad that one of that is as same as yours, hehe ~~~~ Hope you would be more successful in the year of "PIG"

 

To my university classmate-- REN YUE(任越)

 

Congratulations 2 you, REN YUE--very smart fashion designer! I wanna thank you,  no matter for your kind help in my poor period after my graduation, or your valuable suggestions to me. I cherish every opportunity 2 talk with you, no matter in person or via phone. I'll join your wedding later, C U & that lucky girl~~~

 

To my friends known during my work -- Rena & Dannis

 

Pls trust me, each time to go to KTV with both of you, is the best moment 2 enjoy, for me. Rena, thanks for your support in the daily work. Dannis , so lucky 2 know you, since we have much in common :)

 

 

I'm sorry that I didn't write all of your names, but I do wanna say: I love you all!!! All of you are at the bottom of my heart. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

已经一个多星期了，就这么闷着。。。

 

胸口很闷，呼吸都特别费劲。

 

不愿意多讲话，除非是工作上的沟通，就这么闷着。

 

依自己的本性，应该是一吐为快的，可是这一次没有。

 

自己也不知道是为什么，反正宁可就愿意这样闷着，也不愿意讲话。

 

头疼得快炸了，失眠继续侵袭着我。。

 

讨厌这样的自己，很闷！

Five miutes ago, my boss was yellin' at me: You just need 2 email the client as what I told u !

 

Boss~~pls kindly note that I'm not a machine! I'm the human being.

 

That's true~~~ I have my feeling, my emotion, my opinions. I just speak out my mind, since I have go throughout the whole communication with this client.

 

I just talked my opinion. I don't wanna point in dispute.

 

Don't shout at me such rudely, NOT like a gentleman!

 

Even though u r the boss of this company, u decides evertyhing here!

 

I don't wanna challenge ur authority, I just wanna speak out!

 

Come on~~~~Pls trust me I didn't write the wrong title this time. What I wanna say is--Thank God It's Saturday!

 

My friends and I decided 2 go 2 KTV this afternoon, that's pretty high even if it's my treat this time.

 

That's pretty high!!! It could reliease lots stress accumulating few weeks.

 

I have lots to say, but I must be off now, my friends r waiting 4 me.

 

Will back 2 u next Monday.

 

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2006.10.30

 

Yea~~~ I had a great time last Saturday. I don't have a good voice, even can't reach the high vocal mostly,while Rena & Cocodannis do a much better job than I , they could cross different songs freely, Cantonees, Mandarin,English, even Korea, whatever.My god! I just could sit behind them, listen 2 music.

 

Yet, I don't care~~~ I just wanna sing & enjoy that moment, I did! Cocodannis & I stood up, swayed at the rhythm, I don't care that I always made a terrible noise when I break the vocal at the difficult part of the song, I don't feel uncomfortable or embarrassing 2 face my weakness and mangify what i'm not good at, I just know I'm happy, that's enough!

 

After 5 hours' sing in KTV, we walked around the commercial center.Rena & Chan went to the stall-keeper buy some snacks, u know, that kind of pie with several clips baked meat, smells pretty good, and that fragrance make me hugry.

Yet, I tell 2 myself, don't think about it, i'm dieting.Then, turn around and leave.

 

Another hour pass, I gave up the protest from my stomach, I persuaded Cocodannis 2 go 2 a restaurant. We ordered lots food, i don't know how 2 say that in english, u know it's very difficult 2 translate chinese food, especially snacks, by and large.Anyway, when I walked out of that restaurant, I regret eating that food, b/ I'm dieting!!!!!

 

Finally, we decide 2 back home by walk, maybe that could burn some calorie, we hope so.On the way back home, we hunted the samll fashion shop aside by street, but nothing bought~~~

 

I like this way! pretty enjoy this way~~~

 

BTW, Coco gave me a high song! I love rock n' roll~~~

 

At my previous blog, I told u that i'll try more english blog if could. And that's why I come back again.

 

This morning, my friend COCODANNIS sent msg 2 me on MSN, and she thought that my blog is not english but chinglish.Anyway, she still encouraged me 2 keep going, and also left the comments 2 me. Sweet~~~~

 

I'm very clear that my major in unv. is not english, but frankly, I'm always confindent to compete with those get 4 years' language training. After graduating from school, I decided 2 work in a trading company, b/ I guess that will be good 4 my english, at least, i could have the opportunity 2 work in english documents.

 

In my later daily biz work, it seems not a big deal 4 me 2 keep all communication goes smoothly, even if I just could use some simple english, by and large. Everyday, go 2 work then back home, endless overtime without any reason, no two days off per week, it has been more than one year since my graduation unconsciously.

 

Last month, I realised I must take action, since the original idea of change my state occured 2 me long time ago. I'm fed up with those suck politics! I just wanna back 2 myself, focus on somthing, and keep forging ahead.Therefore, I began 2 pay special attention 2 english, like a child observe the world full of curiosity in his eyes.

 

I do wish my english could be more and more frequent, native as well,  whatever 4 written nor spoken. I don't wanna memory gap happens in the course of the communication, which drive me pretty dejected.

 

At this moment, a word from my favourite singer LEEHOM occured 2 my mind suddently,"Gong yu shan qi shi bi xian li qi qi.工欲善其事,必先利其器".Leehom has got huge achivements in pop music field, yet, he never thought he has great voice.He practices almost every day, and always warms up before every performance(even if it's just an autographing session),he focuses on the difficult passages of each song, instead of just enjoying the easy part,and work on them until they become easier.

 

Practice is key to getting better results from his story, if praticing can work 4 him, why can't 4 me? 

 

 

 

What's wrong with my recent life??? I don't know!!!

 

But,

 

I'm fidgety.

 

For what??

 

Everything: my job, the politics, become fatter and fatter while the dieting always interrupted,suddenly find another  wrinkle on the neck..

 

I know, it sounds very ridiculous. But, they do influence on my mood.

 

Calm down~~~~~~~Postive mental attitude!

 

My classmate said: hey, you need a boy friend now. That's good for u.

 

Maybe, they r right, I think at this moment.

 

P.S. from today, I'll try to write the blog in English, hope that helps my language.BTW, my boss wanna I PK the newcomer, whilch make me uncomfortable also.