To my Mum:

 

Pls do enjoy your trip to Nanting at this moment, thanks for calling to me last night and sharing CaiQin (蔡琴)'s song --夜上海 with me via phone. In the past twenty years, u worked so hard and set a good sample 2 me, yet my performance is not good enough to up to ur requirement. However, I still wanna thank you for giving me the life, when I meet the obstacles and setbacks, you always encourage me to overcome it. Even though you can't give me some suggestions on how 2 choose or continue my career path sometimes,  I'm still very clear that your anxious attention 2 my every step. Sometimes, I didn't control my temper very well, b/ of my dissatisfaction 2 my present state.Pls forgive my involuntary behavior, b/ I know, u r the ONLY closed person 2 me in the whole world.

 

I'll become more greater in the new coming year, I promise. Learn more cooking, to join in more social activities, to build a more healthy shape and be rich in my personality.

 

To my 9 years classmate--Qiqi:

 

Pls take good care of yourself, my 9 years classmates. Looking forward 2 seeing ur baby in the next March. In the next year, ur social role will be one more, besides Mrs Fu, good daughter 2 ur family, and u will be the mother of ur baby. I do believe u could do this NEW JOB as good as ur other roles.

 

To my friend-- James Lee:

 

Although we just have the chance 2 meet in person about 10 mins early this year, I do wanna say thank you 4 getting some pro. advices from ur side later in the year of 2006. Surprised 2 be informed that you'll be DAD next month, and give you my proposal for your baby's name. Glad that one of that is as same as yours, hehe ~~~~ Hope you would be more successful in the year of "PIG"

 

To my university classmate-- REN YUE(任越)

 

Congratulations 2 you, REN YUE--very smart fashion designer! I wanna thank you,  no matter for your kind help in my poor period after my graduation, or your valuable suggestions to me. I cherish every opportunity 2 talk with you, no matter in person or via phone. I'll join your wedding later, C U & that lucky girl~~~

 

To my friends known during my work -- Rena & Dannis

 

Pls trust me, each time to go to KTV with both of you, is the best moment 2 enjoy, for me. Rena, thanks for your support in the daily work. Dannis , so lucky 2 know you, since we have much in common :)

 

 

I'm sorry that I didn't write all of your names, but I do wanna say: I love you all!!! All of you are at the bottom of my heart. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

已经一个多星期了，就这么闷着。。。

 

胸口很闷，呼吸都特别费劲。

 

不愿意多讲话，除非是工作上的沟通，就这么闷着。

 

依自己的本性，应该是一吐为快的，可是这一次没有。

 

自己也不知道是为什么，反正宁可就愿意这样闷着，也不愿意讲话。

 

头疼得快炸了，失眠继续侵袭着我。。

 

讨厌这样的自己，很闷！

站在十二楼的窗前，远远看去的是附近小区里居民楼的屋顶，毕竟还是个小城市，她的气质决定了这里的楼层不需要那么高。楼下，马路上来来往往流动的车流继续着自己的轨迹，人行道上的路人，行色匆匆。外头，有点阴冷，很像此刻的心情，看不到阳光。

 

突然觉得，在这个时间点上，自己和他们是相关联的，不论是披上了灰冷基调的居民楼，还是此刻同时出现在视野里的那些车和人。

 

在这个城市生活了二十四年了，这里有自己喜欢的街道，空了，常去那里走走，感受护城河上吹来的风的味道。还有熟悉的朋友，有时，会一起出来聚聚，虽然，简单的城市决定了这样的聚会看来有那么点单调，但，却能让彼此感到温暖。当然，重要的是，这里有我的家人。

 

也正是因为生活了二十四年，有一点点厌倦，总想看看外面的世界，想找寻自己心里的答案，并努力地想让这样的答案看上去显得完美些，再完美些。

 

已不再年轻，但自己的状态却依旧不太好。阴冷的天气提醒我岁末的来临，可是种在心里的花却还没开，不晓得是不是也在冬眠的缘故，真的不晓得。如果是，那这花的花期也太长了。等待的滋味不好受，让人烦躁。

 

突然，自己觉得这样的想法很好笑，无声地笑了一下，轻轻摇了一下头，不想让自己陷在这样漫无边际的思绪里，抬起头，眼前的居民楼依旧灰冷，眼前的天色，较之先前，又暗了一点。

 

不知道下一次，自己又会是站在哪里的窗前，看什么样的风景。

 

只希望属于我的花，早一点开，无论是关于工作的，还是爱情的...